Down and Out

I am in a funk right now and I need some pick me up. In fact, I am just plain sad and frustrated. Sorry this post isn't funny or amusing, but I am feeling homesick, distressed, and disappointed by people in general. I am tired and I feel like crying right now. I just said to Leaf, "I feel like I was a bitch today." I was. I am not myself and this started yesterday afternoon. I just feel like I've made a lot of mistakes so far this session and the song tonight was really bad and I get really self-conscious when I sing and I can't decide how strict I should be and I am feeling self-conscious in general about my counselor ability and I feel like everyone is judging me even though they aren't and I am not teaching the ESL class I wanted and I really don't have anyone to talk to and I feel let down by a person who is not coming to a wedding with me and I have lesson plans to do for tomorrow and I am just exhausted. The first few days with new kids is hard - it's quieter than the end, but it's really difficult to communicate with them. I have to put in a lot of effort. I am just annoyed and I think I need some sleep, but I wanted to write this so that I feel a little better. I don't feel much better. Sorry. Thought this would do more good. I am just sad.